I started flying the BAe 146 in 1989, night flying, within weeks I had visual disturbances in the local supermarket, my alcohom tolerance went to zero, I became a zombie and prefeerred my own company whilst away. I also suffered from a failing memory, slurred speech and word finding difficulties - best summarised by brain fog or feeling permanently intoxicated.
I rationally and logically put my ill health down to night flying but thought I had early dementia, BSE / CJD ? (mid 1990's)
I told nobody but could continue to do my job - checklists, another pilot, mortgage payments, the 'press on spirit of flying' allows this whole subject to be kept covered up.
It still is!
By 1998 I felt seriously unwell and my memory was so bad that I couldn't transfer to another aircraft; so I logically carried on with the BAe 146 but day time flying....
At first things seemed better, flying in daylight was a novelty....
But the ill health never stopped and just got worse and worse.
In 2002 (31st December ) I had a fiull blown fume event which made me feel even worse than ever (Guys if you ever breathe visible white smoke in a confined space for a long time - you WILL feel sick, regardless of what the CLOT committee think).
We keep offering to demonstarte the phenomenon of visible fumes on the ground in a BAe 146 but for some reason they don't want to test / breathe them......Can't think why?
I carried on flying in 2002/3/4 becoming more and more saturated, still blissfully unaware of the cause of the serious ill health.
By 2004 I elected not to fly Public Transport aircraft twice, knowing I had hit a brick wall and was a liability to myself and my passengers. Walking off just before departure for a difficult approach in the Alps is not the easiest thing to do, but that's what I did on 29th August 2004. Best decision of my life.
The Companny gave me a hard time as did the CAA for the next few months. I had set a bad example to junior F/O's....
I had three months off work confused and labelled 'stressed' by certain specialist aviation doctors. Believe it or not, I didn't know anything about the 146 & fumes at the time.
It actually removes ones ability to work it out.
I went back to work but soon felt seriously unwell again and again grounded myself in July '05 - still confused and not well.
I then had 6 months of hell as the airline and the CAA grounded me in early 2006 due to 'chronic stress' - how could I argue? After all, they are the experts...No mention of fumes.
A matter of weeks later, when I was planning to be a Driving Instructor, I was contacted by Tristan Loraine (then of BALPA) who asked if I would like to be part of a test on other pilots? - yes - why not. Nothing else to do!
In mid 2006 it became clear that 27 out of 27 pilots had all got abnormal memories and 20 out of 20 had highly abnormal blood / fat results. Some of the pilots couldn't afford to pay the £450 and BALPA were not keen to pay as by then, they could see excatly where this business was heading.
I couldn't beleive what was happening. Suddenly the visual disturbance in the supermarket in 1990 made sense.
Then I relaised that I was not the only one. Pilots, cabin crew and passengers from all over the world were reporting similar problems. Especially from the 146. How come I was the last one to work it out?
I was so sick by what I found that I decided to try and warn other people such that they wouldn't have to experience the horror that I had gone through for so many years.
Tristan Loraine told me that I might be suffering from a problem called Aerotoxic Syndrome in June 2006 - the first time I had ever heard those words. I founded the Aerotoxic Association in early 2007.
By mid 2007 my health was slowly returning to how it had been in 1989 - incredible. 2 full years after stopping flying.
Stop flying - I was very lucky to recover.
My health is now almost totally recovered although I still fall asleep easily in films, have temperature control problems, if I work hard outside the toxins seem to 'fizz up' inside me.
So now I know many other fellow pilots, cabin crew and passengers who have had a similar experience - we may be poisoned but we are not stupid. Anybody finding components of engine oil in their blood / fat can assume that it MIGHT have something to do with any ill health felt.
It does what it says on the tin.
Seek expert medical attention and advice at:
Please visit www.aerotoxic.org
Some general advice.
- Trust your own body.
- Stay off anti depressants - they only mask the problem, if you have been poisoned.
- Talk to the real experts.
John Hoyte
Chairman Aerotoxic Association
Former BAe 146 Training Captain.